So, an update of sorts! ^^ Things are going great! I've made a lot of new friends through RP, I've started a novel with Brittany, and I started making a dress! I'm still madly in love with life and with "that person", and no matter what happens lately it's just too much of a chore to feel down when I'm so up right now!
So, things are great, life is going well, and I'm fangirling over Ouran and Fruits Basket right now (as well as all the usual stuff XD). And OMG, new background music on here (the Ouran theme song *nerd*). Yay! And a new header image for autumn!
Annnnd, I'm being either Mello or Tamaki for Halloween. I'm not sure which! But... you should help me decide.
And to "that one certain person": I love you so much! I want to sing it to the heavens! I still won't burden you by telling you because I know you're happy in your relationship, but I love you! Being around you makes me smile in a different way, and every moment I get to spend in your company is beautiful! You are the most wonderful person in the world and I feel so endlessly lucky just to know you! I would do anything for you if you asked, and I'll always do everything in the world to make you happy! You are my sunshine and my sky and everything else! Just knowing you exist makes my heart want to sing and dance. And you have the most absolutely wonderful smile in the whole world. I love you for exactly who you are and everything about you, even the bad. Thank you so much for being you!
Well, summer is over! Today is my little sister's first day of high school! I can't believe how fast she's growing up. I embarrassed her a lot this morning by clinging to her and wailing about how my little girl was going to high school, but I'm always embarrassing anyway. I know she doesn't need two mothers, but I can't help it XD I think Kiona is her second father. But yeah, I'm so proud of her!
I'm starting my daycare job pretty soon. It's going to be so much fun! I love kids, though they don't always listen to me because I tend to act more like a kid myself when I'm around them. But I'm excited anyway! I can't believe I'm going to be 20 next month. It seems like the years are going to fast for me to count them! It also seems like the older I get the more immature I am XD But I don't care, because I love life and that's all that counts.
You still don't know who you are, but I'm excited to see you! Tomorrow I'm going to hang out with you while you watch your mom's bookstore, and we'll have a lot of fun! I can't wait to spend the day with you. I hardly ever get to see you anymore, and the thought of tomorrow is wonderful. I can't help but be excited. I bet we'll laugh so much that our sides hurt as usual and make stupid jokes. It'll be our little world again and I'm so glad. I never expected I'd love being just friends with someone I was in love with this much. I doubt I'll ever be able to tell you my feelings, but I just love hanging out! It's going to be our first time together of the summer!
Today I went to Mandie's graduation party at the park. Jeremy, Shauna and Jihan were there, and it was so much fun! We played with Mandie and Jihan's daughters on the swings and the merry-go-round and we all attacked Adam with water and cake. He threw cake at Mandie and it got all over in her hair. I felt bad that her hair was so sticky, but it was still funny! I had a really good time seeing everybody and it felt really nice to hang out again. We all teased Jeremy like back in the old days XD I feel a little bad for the kid, but he's SO easy to tease! It just comes naturally. And he knows we don't mean it, anyway.
YES. I believe fully in gay marriage and am very passionate in my belief about it. If love between a man and a woman is sacred enough to join together permanently (though it usually ends in divorce these days), why shouldn't love between two men or two woman be upheld in the same sanctity? Love is love. It doesn't really matter what equipment you have. What really matters in the end is the love you feel for someone, regardless of their gender. I don't see why it's fine for two straight people to get married and divorce in a week because they hate each other, but it's not okay for two gay people who would actually stay together to get married. In this day and age, the idea of being closed-minded enough to look down on people just because of their orientation makes me sick. It's the same thing as when America looked at black (I don't like the supposedly PC term "African American", because as far as I'm concerned they're just "American") people as being lower than the whites. But we realized our mistake back then, and I hope someday soon we'll realize our mistake about not allowing gay marriage as well.
This post is to honor the memory of Emma Hawkins, who died of a heart attack around 1 AM on Memorial Day (which is sadly ironic). She had the heart attack on Saturday, and survived almost all weekend, which surprised everyone. She died with those she loved around her, and she wasn't in pain because of how much morphine they had her on. I'm glad it wasn't a painful death, though I'm sure the initial attack was painful. I was glad I got to say goodbye and tell her I loved her before it happened, though I feel sort of bad that I didn't stay all night.
I didn't get to see her as often as I wish I could have, but whenever I did she was a wonderful grandmother. She raised three generations of my family (her own daughter, her daughter's daughter, and my mother) mostly on her own and even though she wasn't doing very well during her last few years, she was still always full of life when she talked.
She would have been 100 years old in December 2008 and she had gotten to the point where she couldn't stand up or eat by herself anymore, so she was probably relieved that she got to go, since she was very independant. She never once lived in a nursing home, and we all sort of pitched in trying to help take care of her so she wouldn't have to because of how adamant she was about staying in her own home.
She was a wonderful person and she was very wise and caring. Though I'm happy she's in a better place and she gets to be with her husband (who died 30 years ago), she will still be sorely missed.
